- rmblecookie
feel free to just scroll by. i’ve been meaning to post this but i really don’t care if you read it. i just need to write it out somewhere.
well, i’ve been really stressed lately. there are a ton of things in my life that have me being pulled in all sorts of different directions. on top of those things, the people who i used to be able to talk to about anything aren’t there for me anymore. i still have a couple people i can rely on, thank god, but they’re not always there. normally, i try really hard to mask my problems around my family, most of my peers and on tumblr for the most part. i never want anyone to worry about me. i try really, really hard to make everyone else happy and put my friends’ feelings before mine. but recently, i guess my emotions have been leaking out and my family picked up on it.
to make a long story short, my mom decided i should try therapy. i went on friday, and my therapist said i had moderate depression. i’m going to the doctor on tuesday and they are most likely going to prescribe me a low dose anti-depressant just to up my mood and motivation, and hopefully help me sleep better.
i try really hard not to let my bad emotions seep into tumblr, so if i don’t post a ton sometimes, that’s probably why.
without getting specific, i don’t know when i’ll be able to fix everything. i don’t know how long it will be until i’m really super duper happy again. i’ve been out of school three days this past week due to the fact i’ve been too sad to even get out of bed. and by sad i mean this feeling gets so deep-set that it literally makes me feel sick, i feel weak and i get insanely painful headaches.
so anyway, there’s my srspost. might be the longest thing i’ve ever written on here. i’m writing it at almost 3 AM because i know the majority of everyone is sleeping. anyway, that’s it.
i’m crying laughing right now
idk what’s going on but i love you babycakes
and i hope everything is okay<3
Love you too.
And it’s really not.
if you want to talk, you know how to get me <3
idk what’s going on but i love you babycakes
and i hope everything is okay
<3
oh that was me
serenading you
did you like it
i fucking loved it
